Timothytrespas: THANK THE LORD! LOST AND SUFFERING. HONESTLY STRUGGLING. my attempt at honest (although biased) self assessment and explanations.
I am struggling with my understanding of, relationship with the LORD GOD my FATHER and CREATOR.
Clearly I have a lot to learn.
I pray for others.
I pray for forgiveness of my sins.
I pray for an end to suffering, for mercy, for healing, for strength & courage, for understanding, grace, peace, love, and for forgiveness.
I try to honestly change my self my thoughts and actions and intentions.
I struggle with fear and anxiety and anger and frustration.
I want, need, and require forGOD to LOVE me and to please FORGIVE ME.
I want to know in my heart, mind, body, and soul that I am LOVED by the LORD GOD, that I am forgiven by Yeshua the Christ for my sins, washed clean, my name written in the book of life.
I pray that I may be SAVED from the punishment of eternal hell, damnation, and suffering, and never be separated from GOD.
I am hurt, broken and damaged mentally physically and spiritually from the experience of being traumatized again and again by targeting. trying to come to terms with insane unacceptable unchangeable situation.
There is no where else to TURN THAN TO GOD.
But I had forgotten, forsaken, blasphemed, and ignored my CREATOR and savior Yeshua the Christ.
I was even was made to say that GOD did not exist.
I have sinned horribly.
I beg the LORD to forgive me.
To please help me to find the strength wisdom honesty faith health presence of mind courage I need to get through whatever is left of my life.
I can not do this (live my life) without the power and guidance and love and support of my creator!
I am tormented by evil and doubts and guilt and fear.
I am terrified of getting sicker and dying.
Of falling apart.
Of not being able to care for myself.
Of being homeless.
Of being left to the ‘care’ of systems that do not care about me and possibly even have people working against my survival.
I am working each moment to overcome my limitations whether self imposed or external, real or imagined, natural or man made.
I pray for the suffering of others. I pray for all the people who are being victimized by this system and its goals.
I am attempting to rationalize and accept and explain and i am so traumatized that I am pushed about by the winds of others comments and accusations.
I am only a human being.
I am GODS CREATION!
I keep hoping that sharing these feeling and thoughts will somehow help me accept, understand and act rationally in the face of extreme stress and situations that are difficult by design.
I am trying to work out the many issues targeting created.
TARGETED INDIVIDUALS Timothy TRESPAS, with wife & Partner, PETRA SCHILLER, currently LIVING IN Bushwick, Brooklyn, NYC, STRUGGLE moment to moment TO SURVIVE a CONTINUOUS ONSLAUGHT of UNBELIEVABLE, almost SCIENCE FICTION-LIKE REALITY OF our lives.
Lives now filled with trauma, torture, and manipulation via ELECTRONIC HARASSMENT, MORGELLONS, V2K SYNTHETIC TELEPATHY, NANOTECHNOLOGY, GREEDY LANDLORDS, UNJUST SYSTEMS,, DISCRIMINATION, SICKNESS, SUFFERING, GANG-STALKING, COVERT DRUGGING with LSD for years, POISONING, ELECTROCUTION, IRRADIATION, GENETIC MANIPULATION, forced relocation, poverty, and MORE.
And we pray for protection, for angles to please come and assist us and watch over us and to help us in our battle to remain sane, good, honest, kind, compassionate, understanding, loving.
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